Gentle and Kind Pt. 3

The Grudge In My Heart

A sinking hole

A dagger into my own heart

Poison meant for them but only I am affected

Grudges held for years

Keeping me from true freedom

Why not forgive the past

Worry not of the future

And live in this moment with grace towards myself and those around

It probably seems impossible

The heart wounds have been opened over and over

The pain seems unbearable and like it will never leave

Healing can come when surrender begins

It might take time

It will take intentionality

But anything is possible with our Heavenly Father

I’m sorry if you’ve been hurt by someone and still carry the pain from that. Words, even unintentionally said, can stick with someone for years. Maybe your whole view of yourself or the world has changed because of something someone said to you. You want to hold that against them, hoping it will make a point or even hurt them back. But most likely you’re the only who is affected by continuing to hold onto that grudge.  

The beautiful thing is that, even when you’ve felt unseen, God sees you. He sees what they said or did. He knows how much it hurts to think about that moment. He wants to give you healing, to take away that pain. He wants to let you smile again when you think of that person. He wants to help you pray for and look for ways to serve them. It might be the very last thing you want to do. But might it feel a little better than letting that moment, that can never be done over, torment you for years to come?

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” – Psalms 147:3